what i said was a honest confession. its a creepy feeling when having no indication of changing. year after year people should change. im not saying i havent. i dont know myself so well enough to say something like that as if it were absolute. adam duritz sings "were always changing." but dont listen to everything youre told.
its wrong. its human prideful ignorance. but i feel like ive reached an equilibrium. this is how im suppose to be. ive gone as far as faith can take me with all that god leaves unknown to us. any further and id be tossing logic and reason to the wayside. if i step back then id be insulting the truth.
i dont want to offend the pagans. so, what i really meant to say was the truth as i believe it to be. we can all have different truths right? yup. actually nope. as our dear mr smarty pants ravi zacharias says, "if truth does not exclude, then no assertion of truth is being made. its just an opinion thats being stated."
that part where i said pagans, that was a joke. you can take a joke cant you? you uncivilized heathen.
"if you make me laugh i know i could make you like me. cause when i laugh i can be a lot of fun." oh, if it were only that easy. if i were only that simple. dont worry, youre not alone when you wish you were. "blessed are the shallow. depth theyll never find." its chasing intrinsic human desire. or its neglecting who we are. as it is now, living dichotomously is all we can do to accommodate. until or if we find our conjoining happiness. "wo yao de xing fu."
im mister letssingit dot com.
every turn of a new year i dedicate my life all over again. i pray. or maybe i just talk to myself. with no resolutions. no promises. no plans. just an outflow of words for the wind to carry away and keep. i endure a bit of self inflicted suffering for the purpose i know in which i was created. if it hurts then its real. if it hurts then im still alive. it may mean nothing at all. it may award me no points. and it may earn me no bigger estate in the next life to come. but its my own tribute. my own declaration. my own way of hoping.
"ill live or die on the strength of your judgment, but first let me say who i am." - the poisonwood bible